Monday, December 16th
Today
I awoke feeling a sense of silence within me and realized that I was
feeling the call to renew my spirit and soul with the truths that have
embraced me since I was 11 years old. The knowing of the existence of
Light that we are unable to obtain in the dense energy of consciousness
that plagues this planetary third dimension.
Today
I found myself in the memories of Confucius and his beautiful teachings
of dignity and compassion, to resolve issues maintaining the essence of
goodness and truth. I
weeped and found myself in a place of cleansing and seeking relief from
the energies I continuously put myself in and receive back hurt and
sadness. The lessons I have come to overcome and understand while
visiting this dimension of soul growth and healing.
For
years I have been a student of Jesus and Mary, the Ascended Masters and
of the Virtues of God, and yet, I cannot always maintain their
teachings and my mind drifts into the dramas of this world that are not
real, yet they feel real, the words real and the intentions real, yet
the emotions by which they are stated and sent forth only support a
fleeting energy of loss of control through fear and lack of faith in the
moment. And those are the energies that I allow myself to feel bad
about, the focus is drawn into the negative and painful fleeting moments
of someone else's lack of compassion and understanding,
the
facts not true in most cases, someone elses judgments based on their
limited experiences and fears. I sat in meditation wondering why it is
we do this to ourselves, there can be no blame placed on another as it
is our own weakness and fears that allow the emotions to enter into our
energy fields.
As
I wept I thought about all the friendships I have sustained in my life,
the extraordinary parents who created a family life for them and me and
the friends they brought into my life, those who would affect my
understanding of this world. When I finished the cleansing process and
the weeping, I realized that I continue fall into the emotions and
attitudes and lies that others present as truth and I have accepted into
my being placing me at an emotional risk and at a soul level spending
too much time wondering why someone would choose to deliberately make
choices knowing that someone else trusted them or believed them, or were
friends with them. I know in my heart this behavior of reckless
non-respective and hurtful energy would continue until they woke up to
their own lack of love and respect for themselves and became an
awareness within their own souls. Therefore,not to allow myself to be
judged, be hurt or allow that energy to take another moment of my life
force was the action that would allow me to step into my next space and
next journey.
I
have known this truth forever and a day, but, each time I allow myself
to see myself deeper and with greater spiritual clarity, the teachings
of the Masters become stronger and my foundation in life becomes my
solid in order for me to do the teachings I have come to this planet to
do in this lifetime.
For
me I have spent a lot of my life force surrendering time and effort on
those who only turn around and think I am weak and take advantage of my
joy of giving. Also finding myself with individuals who feel the need
to explain life, their expertise of things that I am very well versed
in, I simply I sit in pure joy of their explanations. This gives them
the opportunity to feel good about themselves. For me the lesson is
tolerance and kindness, giving them the opportunity explore and expand
their knowledge and wisdom by explanation and being heard. This is a way
of living the teachings of the Great Masters who are in delight of our
growth and excitement of faith in ourselves and their kindness to allow
us to be “knowing”. I have been amazed at how many individuals actually
sit and explain psychic energy, and explain the dimensions and the
paranormal to me as if I have not been on this pathway ever. Yet, I
find it liberating to see others reach a place within themselves to
share this knowledge with me. So you see, it is really about perception
and intention rather than emotion and judgments.
Recently
I feel that in my personal life I have come to a crossroads and what I
will chose for the last part of my evolution in this dimension. I have
fully been present for those I love deeply and care for. There have
been those who have taken advantage of me, and have not lived by the
equal exchange of energy; actually believing I am not aware of their
abilities to manipulate me, thinking for sure I have no idea forgetting
once again about my abilities and my connections and how I lived my life
for many, many years before they even met me and all that I have
created and done, yet, really believing I am unaware, stupid to some
degree and weak giving them the opportunities for me to do what “they”
want.
It
is humorous to me, as I only do what I chose to do and for how long and
for who I chose to do for. Yet, the energy is she can’t drive by
herself, she doesn’t know about this or that, I can be kind and loving
and say what she wants to hear and I will get what I want and once again
I have manipulated her for my own well being..That of course is just a
silly interpretation of who I am and what I know and what I do. I know I
create my own reality and therefore, I am well aware of the deception
being created and executed.
A
friend always says, we use each other in one way or another to get
something out of it. I don’t like that definition at all, it hurts my
soul to hear those words and yet, it is true. It does not mean negative
or positive action but what it is in this dimension is the “isness”
of life. Seeking what we need and find a way to receive it and
hopefully a balanced outcome will occur. However, my experience is that
there is a very profound lack of equal exchange of energy taking place
in the consciousness and actions of this world. It is disturbing to
witness it. And yet, I have done it, not accepting my own value and
setting up others to “owe” me in the field of karma, because all actions
create karma whether it is positive or negative. Each individual must
place a value to their actions and what they receive back as equal or
not.
After
my meditation this morning and these realizations coming forward in my
mind once again, I have decided to make this crossroad one to allow the
equal exchange of energy to be a major change in my life. This will
create an avenue of less “karmic debt” on all parts and parties to whom I
have in my life.
If
you do not understand the “equal exchange of energy” I would suggest
strongly that you find out what it is and make decisive decisions that
will correct your karma for the future lives that you will encounter,
this false belief that once you leave this dimension you are finished
with all that, you are incorrect, as the school becomes much more
difficult and less forgiving.....In other words if you have not allowed
your soul to learn the basic laws of God (creator) understood the
virtues and live by them and have chosen to pretend you are too
spiritual, finished your karma, you are about to wake up to a whole new
classroom that will have instant karmic consequences and if you think
this is fast you will be in for the surprise of your Soul LIfe....
So
for me, I am correcting all that I have allowed to be loose and not
firm in my belief system, to live by the law of Equal Exchange of Energy
and make the next part of my journey here, one of Balance and Joy.
Balance is about finding out where you are living your truth and value
and create the energy of being out of balance in life and fixing it.
Karma is created every single day you wake up and every single action
to take for there is a law “for every action there is a reaction” and
these laws can not be ignored or changed. Once again it is the “isness
of the universal mind”...
As
you can tell it was a very busy meditative experience I had this
morning with the thought of my next crossroads and who and what I chose
to continue with in my life and with who. Remember “WE CREATE OUR OWN
LIVES AND WE HAVE A DESTINY TO FULFILL” I hope you make it a good
one....
May
your journey offer you a crossroads to open your mind and heart to take
the path that will best serve your SOUL AND SPIRITUAL GROWTH AND
DEVELOPMENT.
In love and joy of life and renewal.....
Oneesha
