Road Trip

While on a working vacation and traveling I was in a situation that brought me to a place within that I thought I had confronted and healed along time ago, yet, here it was again.  We decided to keep driving on the first day of our journey across country back home.  We drove late into the night and my back was burning, I was tired and getting more and more frustrated.  

Once we found a rest area, we made ourselves comfortable in the car, we fell right to sleep,

just exhausted from the many hours of driving.  

We slept unto morning and when we woke up I felt fine, actually felt great from sleeping deeply, I didn’t hear a sound.  All the other cars except one that were parked in the rest area for the night were gone, I never heard a thing.  We got out, used the facilities, walked our dog and then started driving again.  After a while I felt really grundy and started thinking about it from a different perspective when Gerald said to me, lesson one in being homeless.  I thought about that for a few minutes and started thinking of the many thousands of people who are homeless and whole families sleeping in their cars because something went very wrong in their lives and there was no where for them to turn.  

We had another long day of driving and decided to stay in a hotel that night so I started looking up hotels.  We were concerned about our money so I looked for a cheaper hotel.  I found one and when we got there it didn’t look to good.  However, we decided we were tired and needed to just stop driving.  We went to the room and it was not really good.  There was a hole in one of the blankets, it was kind of, sort of clean and the bathroom had a hole in the floor.  I was freaked to say the least.  Our hotel receipt said you could not get your money back once you paid with a credit card.  I was extremely concerned about many things.  We decided to make the best of the situation and took our showers which were wonderful actually.

We headed out to find some food and decided to stay very close to the hotel since we were so tired and really didn’t want to drive anywhere.  We found a truck stop diner and sat down.

It was not good and it was not bad, but it was good to eat because we did not eat since breakfast and it was after nine o’clock.

Later, Gerald and I talked about the hotel room and he said it was actually a place where the homeless could go when they got some money and have a good night sleep and shower.

There was a TV and gave comfort.  I felt really sad inside, my life has been complicated

since I left my career in 1992.  I have been blessed with work through my gifts and abilities,

people believing in me and my desire to do God’s work.  I have listened to the guidance that I receive every day of my life I think and I have always been taken care of.  Sometimes it has been so difficult accepting gifts from others, those who would volunteer and help support the work I do and receiving gifts to help me pay my bills and live a very wonderful life.

I reflected on this the rest of the trip as we traveled and had a most wonderful and happy journey.

The very best road trip and vacation ever...just great.

However, in the back of my mind I thought about the times I was so nervous I would end up homeless because of the financial difficulty that comes from working one client or one group at a time and serving God and not being paid.  There are many individuals who feel if you are a spiritual teacher, minister, servant of God, you should not be paid for your services.

Gerald realized that once he became an Ordained Minister, those who never questioned paying him for his advice and or guidance starting saying the same thing to him.
“You are a minister, so you should not expect to be paid for your service”...

It was true for me as well, just like Gerald we are psychics and mediums and always received pay for our services and once we were ordained, there were issues with some saying it was not correct because we worked for God.  

This left me in a situation I was not prepared for.  I didn’t charge the amount I had been charging,

I was having difficulty defining what was minister work and my other work, which is the same work really.  And left me in a struggle with my finances.

This led me to a hidden fear about becoming homeless some day and not being able to take care of myself.  I worked through it because the fact is, God takes care of us and the path we are on is the path we are on because that is where we are doing our soul work and learning to become what God had intended us to become.  There are no accidents or random acts in the universe and once I made peace with that my life opened up again.

On this trip though it stirred up something inside of me about my own life and although I am truly a grateful being, and I am always in prayer and thankfulness, there is more and more to learn for my soul about gratitude I am sure.  We live in a world of instant gratification and our children have begun to lose their humbleness and thankfulness just as we adults have.

We have so much in our world given to us and when someone does not give us something or wants an equal exchange for service feel offended and when someone does not have as much as another, they flaunt their lives in front of them.  We are a very spoiled society of

how much can I have and extremely wasteful...Extremely wasteful.

There is someone in my life that when you pay her what you owe her for something she has given or provided is so thankful that it has always touched my heart as an act of an angel.

So even though in my life, I have been grateful, I have learned to be more humble and learn accept gifts and pay them forward, there is yet more for me to do in my own life and so

I am thankful for the last part of our road trip because it was a gift to have this experience,

and as always, I am so thankful it was with Gerald my spiritual partner in this life.

May we all take a look at our lives and see how much better we can be, how much more we can do and what we can give back with a good and kind heart.  Many people have an issue talking about God these days, they have to say creator, spirit, goddess, I say “MY God”...

God, Goddess, All That There is in the Universe.  For my God is not religion, my God is my creator and the spirit that flows through me in all things and all that I know and shall become.

May you live your life with clarity in all things, moving towards the Enlightenment.  Our being a good Spiritual Being is just the beginning of our Illumination .... Our pathway is about Enlightenment of All That Is...Happy Journey from my heart to yours.